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Mar 23, 2012

Here we go


I know buddy, I feel ya. . .

Mommy was offered at job this week. This is really exciting but also really scary. I have worked for the past 2 1/2 years to get to this position. All those days at the library and Starbucks have finally paid off. And I worked my butt off to get here. This is a new career for me so I am excited to get in and learn the real ropes. The position I was offered is amazing, the one I have been dreaming and yearning for since I began the program. But still, I'm sad. 

I'm sad because that means our time together is limited. I knew even when we started to talk about bringing you into our lives, that I would have to work and not get to stay home. It is part of the reason why I went into the field I did at a later stage in life, so I could have the flexibility to be home with you a good part of the day. But I still want to be with you all the time, not just part of the day. I want to be there when every first happens, when every boo boo happens, when every new food and word is learned. I have loved watching you change and grow so much already in your 3 1/2 months.

I need to appreciate the time we do have together. Even those times when you are screaming at me and I am tired. I am very lucky that I don't start work till July so we have a ton of time left. I know it will go oh so fast. For now, Mommy is going to work hard to enjoy every single day with you and keep them exciting and adventurous. 

There is still a lot to figure out going forward - like what my shifts are and if/when we need extra care for you. Plus, where are we going to find that care. I have faith that the pieces will fall into place just as they have already. 

Just know, when I do go to work - I will miss you so so much. It makes me tear up just thinking about it now. I will ball my eyes out on the first couple days. Daddy and I are doing this to make a better life for all of us. This hopefully means our own home and in the future fun vacations - stuff like that. My career will hopefully give you a reason to be proud that I am your mom, because I am out there giving back to society in my small way. I just want to be the best mom I can for you. 

I love you lil man - even when you drool all over me all day long :)




Mar 20, 2012

Most amazing thing ever

I really can't come up with the words to explain how awesome it was to witness this. Only that it completely melted my heart. It happen yesterday (3/19) while Matt was messing around trying to Cameron to take a short nap. I have watched this over and over again - each time I just want to cry with joy. So, for everyone's enjoyment:

Cameron's first laugh!!!


Mar 19, 2012

Running - day 1

My body has not bounced back as fast or as easily as I would have wanted to. Even with BF I have plateaued after losing 20 lbs since birth. But I really am not complaining because I haven't done anything at all for physical activity since getting in crazy shape for my wedding.

 
This is a couple weeks after our wedding. We are with Matt's godson Quinn at his baptism. 

This is me about a month before birth (tailgating at a UConn football game - with my little brother Sam):

Ya, I would love to have that wedding body back now (like right now please!!!)

So, my friend Stephanie suggested Couch-to-5K program. She used it and has been running lots of 5K's lately. She just did one this past Sunday in Hartford with her husband. (Yea Steph and Barn!!!) I ran a bit to get into shape for my big day so I know running will do wonders for my body and fast. I just truly truly hate running. I have never developed much of an endurance for it. Even when I had 10 dance classes a week and was dancing constantly - I still could never handle running. Well, this program is suppose to be the right fit for someone like me. Someone who can't stand running. 

Today, is my first day trying it. What is nice, my husband Matt is along for the ride too. We did day one of the recommended schedule. And let me tell you - it was brutal. 

But I did it and ran/walked for 25 minutes at 60 to 90 second intervals. My knees hurt, I am tired and still feel a bit winded. But I am told this will get better as I go. Oh, there is also another fun problem I came across with running after pregnancy but more on that later. And I will do it again on Wednesday. Not looking forward to that at all. 

On another note:
To each post I am going to add a dinner tonight section. I am always trying to come up with ideas for dinner so I thought it I start writing them down maybe I get more creative with what we eat and get some new ideas. 

Dinner tonight: Chili cheese dogs (grilled) with french fries and baked beans - timeless for a beautiful day like today



Our Week by Droid - week 1

I have been following Amy over at A Good Life since probably sometime early in my pregnancy. There are many baby blogs I like to keep up with but Amy's is one of my favorites. Her family has always felt a lot like my own: young couple getting by, having fun and enjoying what the future has ahead. I am really excited for her that she is pregnant with #2 and look forward to following her pregnancy. 
From her blog, I have thought it would be fun to follow her idea of Our Week by IPhone (except I have a Droid so it is Our Week by Droid) To me it is a good way to keep up with what I accomplished/did the past week and keep people in the loop. 

So here is our week last week:

Monday was pretty lazy. Hung around the house mostly, probably did laundry. The only exciting thing was there was a new camera app on sale for 25 cents at the droid market so Matt and I spent bath time taking funky photos of Cameron


Tuesday I had to go up to UConn to meet with Career Services and have them touch up my resume and cover letter - yes I am actually trying to look for a job (kinda sorta) It was beautiful on campus and quiet with the students on Spring Break. We met up with my friend Kim for lunch. I finally got a picture of Cameron with Jonathan the Husky Dog :)


Wednesday was baby gym day at MyGym. We have a lot of fun there and it is great to spend time with other babies the same age. Blurry photos cause Cameron wouldn't sit still for me.

Wednesday night we had dinner at my mom's and Cameron got to spend some time with his grandma :)

Thursday was another lazy day - the only photo during the day is of Cameron looking all tough man - he does look super cute though! Also, Matt begged me to put Cameron in 'Cuse gear for the NCAA tourney game that afternoon. Of course Syracuse won and sadly our Huskies lost later that night (who Cameron is and will be a true fan of)



Friday we met up with Kim, her mom and her niece Hannah to do some shopping at Evergreen Mall and hit up Target. Cam is not the biggest fan of  mommy trying on some clothes or waiting in line at check out. 


This was our weekend. We cleaned and hung out. Not too crazy. We spent our St. Patty's day watching basketball and making some food. We made a smaller version of this very yummy Mediterranean Dip along with some sweet and sour meatballs and potato skins. You can see how much Cam is into St. Patty's day. It is very different from the years before of drinking green beer all day. But I really enjoyed spending time with my now little family.

I also got to spend some time working on a carseat quilt I am making for Cameron. What do you think so far?









Mar 16, 2012

March Madness


Cameron's reaction to March Madness. He is absolutely a UConn fan in the end :)

Mar 15, 2012

Faces






3 Months



Cam Jam is now 3 months old. He is actually older than 3 months but I didn't this post done till today.

Where did my newborn go? How did it go by so fast? My brother, Sam, said the other day that Cameron is a little person and no longer the souless blob. Sam never really got the whole newborn thing of a sweet smelling, sleep and eat all the time, that loves to cuddle and falls asleep on my chest blob. Those early days were hard ~ no smiles, no consistency, crying, crying, crying. . .but now I look back and miss my sweet little newborn baby. I tried to savor every little moment but I worried and I stressed about his life and my life and if we were doing everything right.

Things have smooth out. Cam and I have figured each other out for the most part. I get to enjoy the little moments of each day more now that my boards are over and am leisurely looking for a job. Life is good.

Cameron has developed so much of a personality. I can see his likes and dislikes, interests and even at times when he is scared. He loves to interact with people, just smiling at faces and taking it all in. It is amazing to watch this little guy grow. I have a feeling that Cameron is going to have a shy temperament because I see him sit with me or his dad and watch everything very closely. He likes the comfort of what he knows and then will watch something new from afar, taking it all in and getting use to it.

Cam Jam Stats:

Weight: about 13 lbs, probably a bit more now as we weighed him two weeks ago
Height: 23 inches

Things that have changed: more and more talking, can definitely see what seems like across the room, a bit of an increase in active/alert time, and he is starting to mess with his hands, so close to actually grabbing something. I am so excited for him to start picking things up but I forget that once this happens nothing will ever be safe. Oh, and he is drooling ALL THE TIME. Everything is covered from mucus sliding out of Cam's mouth. Bib wearing is a total fashion must right now.



Likes:
Bath time!
Mommy
Changing table & Mobile
Car Rides
Tummy time - from the start he has preferred his stomach and now he would rather be on it than on his back
Standing
Being naked


Dislikes:
Having to wait for Mommy
Being put in the carseat before we get into the car
Being dressed

Thank you Cameron for everything you are and everything you are going to be. I love every single little piece of you.

Mar 13, 2012

Spring Fever

It is so typical to talk about the weather but really it is truly something to be celebrate lately. This time last year we probably still had over 30 inches of snow on the ground. Today, it was 70 degrees and gorgeous. And when the sun is out and the day is warm, everyone is happier. We have been blessed with a very mild winter this year and I am all for that after last year's crazy snow and this summer/fall wicked weather (yup, we lost power twice for 5+ days - yea hurricane Irene and snow on Halloween) Let's just hope this feeling of spring is here to stay and there is no freak weather in 2012.

Here is what my husband and dog looked like in last year's winter:


This year is looking like a lot more fun:





Love those two :)

Mar 12, 2012

Sleep Training at 3 Months



We decided that it was time to start a sleep training schedule with Cameron. Cam wasn't one of those awesome babies that start to sleep through the night unexpectedly. And I had noticed lately that he really wasn't eating during the night but more so snuggling up into my chest and falling back to sleep. I went back and forth on if Cameron was too young (he's 3 months). But I came to the conclusion that he was ready for this when I noticed he wasn't even awake when he was fussing and crying in the night. I would wake him up by turning on the light and picking him up. Plus, I really wanted to stop bad habits as soon as possible, thinking that it would be less detrimental to Cameron the earlier on we dealt with this.

After a lot of research online and in books, I found Moms On Call. These women are Pediatric ICU nurses and moms who have developed an online class to help parents create a schedule for their child and get some much needed sleep. I took the 3 - 12 month online baby seminar last week and we started to practice their ideas on Friday night. The whole thing about the Moms On Call schedule is that it is 3 nights of work with your infant to get them to sleep through the night.

At the same time we are transitioning Cameron from his cozy bassinet which he is getting to big for - to the pack and play (as we don't have a crib yet - should probably work on that) This is also moving him from right next to our bed to the other side of the room - yes I did cry. I can't imagine right now a whole room away from us, the sadness, the loneliness.

Night One (Friday) - Cam woke up three times (12/2/4). I think I woke up every hour to just watch him for a bit. I eventually got him out of his bed around 6:30 am and fed him. The day routine was harder to stick to the MOC schedule but I think you can work on that after you really establish the night routine.

Night Two (Saturday) - Cam woke up once I think at 4 am. We got a little thrown off of when to wake him up because it was Daylight Savings - so I got him for his feeding at what was 7 am on my cell phone (spring forward time) but was really 6 am from when he went to sleep the night before. I woke up once or twice this night.

Night Three (Sunday) - I am pretty sure Cameron slept through the night!!! At least I did not wake up and hear him. My husband had to get up to go to work at 5 am and said Cam was awake but I didn't get him out of bed till 6:50 am and fed him. SUCCESS!!!! I slept from 10 pm to 5 am - that was the longest stretch of uninterrupted sleep since before Cameron was born. Hallelujah!!!!

Now, will be the true test to see if this works. And I have to try to start to follow the daytime schedule which is going to be a little bit harder. But I am really happy with the results thus far. The only issue I have to figure out now is the engorgement from not feeding Cameron in the middle of the night. I am waking up to quite a mess in the am.

Sweet sleeping baby




Mar 9, 2012

Back on the Band Wagon

I am going to try to do this for real this time. I really wanted to try to blog like many new moms while I was pregnant and especially when my little man was first born. I wanted to try to capture that time and write down everything and anything so we could remember it always. But life is busy (as always) and I haven't had the focus to give this a try again.

The past year has been a complete whirlwind. And has done a 180 degree change for us. Now, my family is at a place where life is not happening so so fast. I really want to try to enjoy what is happening right now. Not look to the past and not always be looking toward the future. Just take in what is right in front of me now.

For now, I just want to try to write down what we do each day. Whatever is happening in our lives. Everyone tells me this time in my life flies by and soon you are wondering where it all went. This is my try at attempting to hang on to those moments.

So to start off, here is a small video of my little man from last night (4/8/12). After he takes a bath he comes out of the tub super happy no matter what mood he was in before. This is one of my favorite times in the day together. What makes this so special is that we usually have this time together, as a family, just Matt, Cameron and I.